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In the wake of Barack Obama's significant speech today on race in America everybody has been weighing with opinions. One of the smaller more telling observations I've made in all this came during Sheperd Smith's show on FOX today. Smith grew up in Mississippi (he's white) and his anger during the levy failure in New Orleans was amazing to watch. I really like him. He had two white commentators on with him today - one middle aged guy for the Democrats who loved the speech and one fairly young woman from the Young Republicans. The young woman didn't like the speech or see its relevance and Smith wasn't taking that from her - he clearly grew up looking at racism in all its forms every day and he wasn't letting her dodge and weave. At one point she said that her grandparents had come to this country and worked hard and gotten ahead and this issue of race wasn't part of their lives - or thus the lives of any Gen X or Gen Y'ers. And I thought well of course not.

It didn't affect you, (who most certainly must have come from a nice white suburban background) so of course racism doesn't exist. End of story and end of her thinking the issue is real.

I grew up in Central Florida which is not really southern in the social sense of the word - it's more Lauderdale and Miami and Daytona - more beach then old Confederacy. (Part of this might be due to the fact that the Civil War barely made it into FL so the only truly "Southern" portions of the state are really in the north - areas that Floridians will often say are more like Georgia than Florida.) If you asked me when I was growing up about racism I would say I didn't know beans about it - my classes in school were mixed and not due to busing - it was just the demographics of the working class area I grew up in. But honestly there were no black people that grew up in my neighborhood - they all lived in the black section of town, period. Literally, it is across the railroad tracks (can you believe that?) and it was alway a mysterious place to me. We never drove back there. Across town, there was another black section and while the main road through it was one I drove many many times I was always told to never stop on it at night, even for a red light.

But my hometown wasn't racist. Not really.

I attended Catholic Church until I was a teenager, just as my family had done for generations. (And my grandparents continued until their deaths and my father until his death and my mother still does.) I never saw a black person in our church. I'm sure there must have been at least one sometimes - black people are Catholics too - but I can't recall ever seeing one. What I do know is that there are black churches in my hometown and there are white churches. That's how we all know them. I'm sure there must be some with mixed congregations but I don't know about them specifically. All I know is that I saw black kids in school but did not live near them and did not worship with them. And that was just the way it was.

(I should note that my father worked with a lot of black and hispanic co-workers at the local military base where he was employed for 20 years in a civil service position. He was friends with everybody, united in a common goal of disliking the officers and upper class at the base. I wish he was alive today so we could talk about all this; I think he would have a very unique perspective on it.)

When I was in Fairbanks I met a lot of Alaska Natives (both Inuit and Indian) and that opened up a lot of other racial stereotypes. In Alaska is not really about black and white at all, but white and Native and everyone is part of that conversation. There is also a difference between people who live in the village (white or Native) versus those who live in Town. And there is a difference between whites from Outside and whites from AK. More than once I stood at work complaining about stupid white people - there was no similarity between the ones who made my life hard because they knew nothing about Alaska, airplanes and flying and myself because they were whites from Outside. It was all complicated but that's how it was and I wasn't the only one on the job who hated dealing with white people. (Common conversation: "Who am I flying to Ft Yukon today?" "Some white people." "Crap!")

I started teaching history for one of the community colleges on Ft Wainwright in Fairbanks in January 1997. My students were a mix of black, white and Native American as well as Central American, African, Jamaican and Filipino. There was no universal color or ethnicity. The predominant color however was black. In the beginning I stuck to the standard textbook crap and I was very very dull. But over time I realized that I had black students who knew everything about the Civil Rights movement and white kids who knew nothing about it. I had kids (of all colors) who knew nothing about WWII (not even who fought on what side) and students who could talk for hours about US foreign policy and how it affected their birth country and kids from reservations who never got past the US Civil War in school. Pretty much the only thing they all had in common was money. Almost all of them enlisted to get money to get away from home, get a leg up on the American dream, get cash for college. Getting into the middle class was their lifelong dream but they all had different experiences and a lot of misconceptions about each other. I had students who had never sat in a classroom with someone of a different race - ever. Everything Obama talked about today - about whites hating blacks because of affirmative action and blacks hating whites because of racism - was on display in my classes. I remember distinctly when one of my sergeants told us he had been stopped while out jogging - on military bases - three separate times in his career. They stopped him because he was a black man running. When we questioned the white MPs in the class as to why that would happen, they said a lot of MPs are from the south. They didn't trust blacks, even when they outranked them, because they were certain the rank was due to affirmative action and nothing else. Stopping a black man running was just something they could do - so they did it.

There was a lot of anger in my classes and a lot of work to try and bridge that emotion.

One day a 19 year old white enlisted girl whose job was to be the driver for the base commander (we all figured she was chosen because she was cute) said quite honestly that she had never seen racism so why did blacks insist it was there? Why didn't they move on? A black female sergeant sitting behind her had to be physically restrained from standing up on the table and screaming. What we finally got down to was that in this room, living on this same base, they still needed to be able to explain themselves to each other and find common ground - find a way to listen. "She is the one you need to make understand," I told the sergeant. "She just doesn't know any better."

Got that Young Republican lady on FOX? You just don't know any better.

I will not go into specifics here, on the internet, about my own personal interactions with racism but I will say that in my extended family I have sat down more than once at the table and shared a meal with people who have been unfailingly kind and loving but will also say incredibly racist things - things they believe in. Because of that confusing personal reality, it was this part of Obama's speech that most resonated with me:

I can no more disown him [Rev Wright] than I can disown the black community. I can no more disown him than I can my white grandmother - a woman who helped raise me, a woman who sacrificed again and again for me, a woman who loves me as much as she loves anything in this world, but a woman who once confessed her fear of black men who passed by her on the street, and who on more than one occasion has uttered racial or ethnic stereotypes that made me cringe.

I love people who are racist and I don't say either of those words - "love" or "racist" lightly. It appalls me and disturbs me when they say the things they do and I always fight back against it whenever words are said that I object to. I do not allow my son to be in their presence if they will not censure their language. But that is who they are - because of geography and history and choices they make about what they want to believe. And I have to accept that while making every effort to change the country so that eventually such attitudes will disappear. (And that is part of why I have supported Obama - not the color of his skin but because he is willing to address and change so many aspects of our class filled society that have lingered for far too long.)

I understand what Barack Obama said today and I embrace it because it is exactly the complicated unpleasant truth that I have been witness to on many many occasions. Even on the simplest terms - such as reviewing books - race is an issue. I struggle constantly to find books with black characters, all kinds of books from serious to fun, for my teen readers. It is incredibly hard. I struggle to find books that address class in a way that both includes and expands beyond the issue of race. It is also incredibly hard. But I do keep trying and that effort I think is an important one. More books with minority characters should be published in this country, period and the fact that they aren't is certainly some subtle kind of racism that we all choose to ignore, that we all pretend is about demographics and dollars and on and on and on. I mean really, how many black Disney princesses are there?

Enough said.

At the end of the day, what Obama is saying is that the issue of race is here and it isn't going away - it is the problem that America still struggles with and just because you convince yourself otherwise, just because your family so handily sidesteps it, doesn't mean it isn't real.

You don't know what it is like for me, my black students would say. And those words would be echoed across the room by white, Native American, Asian, and on and on. So tell us, I would say. Tell us and let us move closer to understanding America; tell us and we will listen. For the first time in our separated lives, we are all in here together and we will listen.

If we truly want to grow up and change the world then unlike those who came before us, we all - every color - need to listen.

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Thanks, Colleen. You've captured so many of my thoughts on the speech.

Thanks for this excellent post, Colleen. Having spent the first few years of my life in your hometown, I realize how very unaware I was of any issues of race at that age: I'm sure they were there, but we moved away from there when I was 7. I'd go so far as to say that I didn't even have much occasion to think about it until I moved out of Florida entirely. Which isn't to say it's not a problem there, of course, but just that I was very young, and very fortunate to live in a diverse community (esp. in Tallhassee) and not question it. (I don't mean to suggest ignoring racism is okay, of course. But at a young age, I think, most children just figure, okay, some people are not the same color as me, whatever.)

What's really odd is that having visited there again and again in the intervening 20 years, I still don't think about it when I go there. And I wonder if that isn't me being stuck at my seven year old self, every time I go "home."

I've noticed that in Central FL in particular (on the beach) it is not so obvious, Kimberly - I'm sure other areas of the nation are that way also, but I didn't go to a school that was full of Confederate icons or anything (we were the Commodores for heaven's sake - our cross town rivals were the Bulldogs) so it's just not quite so blatantly southern.

But part of it that we just don't notice a lot, not until we have to. And I guess that was a big part of Obama's speech - he's saying that all that not noticing needs to stop.

Thanks for stopping by guys!

My Dad grew up in Pensacola.
We went back there every summer for years when I was a kid, 'til my grandma moved to SF.

We never saw any Caucasian people at all.


My grandma was also military, and so her boyfriends came in a variety of colors. My Dad's Dad was Greek. But even though she lived in a nice brick house on a nice street and her work life was integrated, her worship and home was not.

This is really interesting. My Dad was bussed, of course, and that's how his high school was integrated. He vividly remembers pre-integration trips to school; the windows dropping when the two buses stopped at stop lights, the spitballs and rotten fruit projectiles flying across the lanes, and then the light changing, and the windows going up, and everyone going on to school as if nothing hateful had happened.

My Dad doesn't often eat in restaurants. White people spat in the food intended for black people -- he saw them do it, working in the kitchen in the military. I'm pretty sure he did it himself and saw black soldiers do it, too. He was stopped and harassed in the military -- and though his skin and eyes are light, the one-drop rule exits and multiculturalism did not. He is a person who doesn't trust the intentions of anyone outside his race (nor the intentions of a whole lot of people within his race, but I think being in the military is responsible for that), despite working and worshiping with them, despite his own son-in-law, for whom he makes an exception to the cheerful and phony voice he affects. Sometimes.

To everyone else who chooses ignorance of racial issues in America because it doesn't affect them, I can truly say: it still matters. It still affects people. Race IS.


Great post, C.

Indeed. Racism exists, and Obama touched on it but did not delve. It was no 'I have a dream' speech as I have heard biased supporters claim. It didn't jump on the electrifying third wire that kills political ambitions (and opens up public sores like racism). No, the speech tippy-toed by it. I was considering becoming an Obama supporter. I support none of them. This obvious political ploy very much pushed me away. Indeed racism exists and it's a TWO way street, not a one way street. I was the only white child in an all black neighborhood and was badly abused. There were many kind African Americans or I'd be dead because there were many more unkind ones. That is the way it works in ALL race relations. As long as we allow hatred to come from any group for any reason that is not current, we'll never get past it. The Reverend Wright is a prime example of racism at it's worst, but we can't do anything about him. We just have to let him be. He's a crazy old uncle. hmmm. I bet David Dukes is somebody's crazy old uncle. That's why we're where we're at!

Actually deminizer if you read his speech you will see that he does address Caucasian concerns more than once and also validates their concerns over affirmative action, etc. He acknowledged that racism was "a two way street" and that is part of why the speech has been so lauded.

And David Duke is most certainly someone's uncle, just as my relatives are related to me. It's not as easy as screaming "racist" at someone and pointing the finger. It's never that easy and I think that was his main point.

TadMack - my father (who worked with water/sewer systems at the AF base) always used to tell us not to eat at the Officer's Club. (My mother remarried a retired officer.) He said we didn't want anything that came out of that kitchen.

One wonders how people in the military eat!

Thank you for this excellent comment.

Obama's speech has me excited about our country's future in a way I didn't think possible anymore. Racism hurts all Americans. The only way our country can grow is to have these awkward, painful conversations, and to study our history to understand how we got here.

Leaders like Obama might - just might - have the strength and vision to move us forward.

Thanks for stopping by Laurie - and here's hoping we all somehow maintain the collective maturity to have these "awkward, painful conversations."

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Hi-I read your heartfelt article "Chasing Ray" and I thought it ironical that I had written a similar article last evening, with a different take. I too have witnessed racism a good part of my life growing up in Bronx, New York but it was Black racism. Like yourself, I choose not go into my personal lifetime experiences with racism, bullyism, and intimidation. However, I would like you to read my article now and perhaps you will get an understanding that resentment is a legitimate two way street and that if Senator Obama's grandmother feared Black men in her presence, maybe it wasn't from racism but from her lifetime experience.

Caucasian Concerns
My dearly departed wife was a superstar teacher in a predominantly African-American school for thirty five years. Several years ago she related a story to me that's really stuck out in my head. During a Martin Luther King Day celebration, an elementary school student in her class asked her if there were there any famous White people. I thought then, and still do think that this was a fair and interesting question. To any child growing up in this politically correct society of the past forty years, what Caucasian accomplishments to our nation's greatness are celebrated today? While George Washington, the father of our country, and Abraham Lincoln, the Great Emancipator have had their birthdays merged into the non-descript Presidents Day, Martin Luther King is lauded and known by every school child in the land. It begs the question, what impact and relevance would King have had if these two presidents hadn't come before him?
To make up for the reprehensible institution of slavery of a 150 years ago, contemporary white guilt ridden liberals have abdicated all leadership in this country and have allowed 18% of our population to control 82% of the U.S. agenda. From affirmative action programs, to hip hop, to gangster rapp; from the welfare state; to dominance in sports, Black Americans are playing an increasingly greater role in American culture while still castigating White America for the injustices that befell their ancestors a century and a half ago. One doesn't have to look far to prove this point.
The ranting and undulations of the bigot Rev. Jeremiah Wright could be dismissed as comical if it weren't for the near unanimous acceptance he receives from his congregants. In the days and weeks following the revelation of his vulgar remarks, a plethora of Black ministers seemed less than shocked by his rhetoric; instead, they claimed these thoughts are expressed regularly in many Black churches during Sunday sermons. No doubt the African-American community or any segment thereof is entitled to think any way they wish but why White people don't take greater offense to this escapes me. Not ever owning a slave nor knowing anyone who has, I don't understand why modern Caucasian Americans don't hold their African-American counterparts to the same standards they are kept to. The vast majority of White people in this country are not related to slave owners but are mainly the descendants of poor immigrants that came from Europe in the early 20th century looking for opportunities in this wonderful new land. Does the leadership of the African-American community realize that the inequities between the races in modern day America have more to do with too much emphasis on pop culture and not enough on education; poor family dynamics amongst many in the lower socio/economic category; and the ease in which to blame others for their own shortcomings, rather than it does on White racism. In reality, it can’t be denied that hateful speech and the notoriety it brings is big business, it has made many a pastor a millionaire; it certainly hasn’t hurt Rev. Wright amass a fortune on the backs of his more than willing, less fortunate congregants.
The African-American community should realize that they do not have a monopoly on resentment and that a great deal of White disdain has been brought on by them. When that meaningless idiot and talk show host Imus made offensive comments about Black women both the mainstream White and Black communities rightfully called for his head. When Rev. Wright denounces everything White and American he can think of, he’s dismissed as somebody’s old uncle speaking out of turn. Is this not a duality? Is this not racism? Can anyone doubt that the overwhelming support for Al Sharpton in the Tawanna Brawley hoax, as well as other frauds the now mainstream Reverend has perpetuated; the near unanimous support O.J. received for murdering two White people; the support given to the thugs that raped and near killed the Central Park jogger and many other outrages too numerous to mention have led to White animus?
I dare say, contemporary Black racism is far more endemic than black leadership or their white apologists will ever admit to. From the preaching’s of Elijah Mohammed, Malcolm X, and Louis Farrakhan, to Jesse Jackson, Al Sharpton, and Rev.Wright, Black nationalism and class warfare seem to hold greater sway over that community than peace, love, and harmony with their Caucasian counterparts. Perhaps what was thought of as the obsolete philosophy of "separate but equal," is no longer obsolete.

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